Taking a risk isn't always about diving into a situation. It's also a risk not to dive. One risks not knowing what could be. However, I find myself making wrong decisions whenever I decide to dive into situations. Following my heart led me to do things, while not wrong, would have been better executed differently.
I know deep inside, I still want to take a chance. I still want to see where such decision will lead us, or maybe just me. It is obvious that odds are against me. We cannot be. Because he is tied in a world so different from mine. He's a rockstar in his own right. I'm just another girl, like many others, who'd kill to be the one who to prove he deserve to be taken care of.
I guess I'm over-thinking again. I'm thinking way ahead and waaaay beyond reality. So I will take the risk of running away. Maybe running away will make me better. I wouldn't know. It's my first time to run away. All I know is that I must choose for myself, and not because of temporary fancy. I don't know where this will take me but my guess is it's somewhere without him.
And my other guess... I'm okay. :)
