My Valentine's Post

I've been wanting to post some stuff in January but never got to do it. I just get stuck with an idea that I cannot put into words.

Now it's Valentine's Day and I guess I might as well put my two cents out there.

I came across an article that mentioned something about girls hating Valentine's day because they remember how single they are. My take? I don't need Valentine's day to remind me how single I am. Every waking day reminds me of that. And frankly, I'm perfectly okay with it. :) So I will not defend being single. Because first, it's not a crime. Second, it's not like I'm the only one left without a boyfriend. And third, because I'm happy with what and who I have in my life right now.

That is not to say I can't be happier. I can, of course. But you see, I'm also a believer in perfect timing. And like someone placing a special order of thigh and leg parts only for their fast food meal, I am willing to wait.

Just because I am single, doesn't mean I am without love. I feel the love from friends, and from my family, from Papa God.

I take a stress free work week as love from Papa God. He doesn't want me to have wrinkles. :)

A fun day with friends is love.

Awesome food is love.

Good deeds are love.

A good night message from my mom is love.

A visit from little Julian is love.

A sincere hug is love.

The perfect pair of shoes is love.

A beautiful weather is love.

A slice of that perfectly moist and light cake is love.

A tweet-back from someone you look up to is love.

Freebies are love!

Adam Levine is love. Chos! (Masingit lang? haha)

You see, love doesn't have to be from a single person. Love is how you see it. It's also how you say it. And how you show it.

To the people in my life, I love you! At different levels and different ways but I do. :)

And to the person who has yet to be part of my life, I don't know what's taking you so long but one day I know all this waiting is gonna be so worth it. See you soon! <3

It'll find you, eventually.

Trust top wedding videographer Jason Magbanua to make you believe in true love.

Cay and Melvin from Jason Magbanua on Vimeo.

P.S.

I was gonna post this link on Twitter but while watching the vid, I found out one of my good friends broke up with her boyfriend so I thought it would be too insensitive of me to do so.

Anyway, enjoy the video. :)

Perfect!

Last night I made a last minute decision to attend the party that some August birthday friends organized.

I had a grand time laughing and catching up with everyone. Some friends brought their 'plus one' which made us singles discuss how we feel. A lot of us are okay but excited to fall in love. Some worry if they'll ever find one, and some just wanted to take things as they come.

Anyway, at mass earlier this evening, I just heard the perfect homily.

The reading said something like 'Ang nauuna ay mahuhuli, at ang nahuhuli ay mauuna.' (So the last will be first, and the first last.")

(read the complete gospel here)

Our parish priest, one of my favorites, Father Luciano shared a few stories in the homily.

He told us about his older sister who got married at the age of 26 but did not bear a child until she is 40. Another child just a few months ago. She is 44 now. She would cry to Father Luciano during the years that they were trying to get pregnant.

There is another woman who works at the parish. Father Luciano said 'Itong babaeng ito, mas matanda pa sa akin. Wala man lang kilalang naging boyfriend, ni crush wala. As in mula ulo hanggang paa, dalagang dalaga talaga. Akala namin at akala rin niya yun na ang tadhana niya. Eto ngayon, nagbakasyon sa Bicol. Siguro madaming bulag sa Bicol, nakaloko tuloy si ate. Ngayong November, ako ang magkakasal sa kanila.'

Yung mga nawawalan ng pag-asa, wag kayo susuko. Kasi hindi titigil ang Diyos, hahanapin ka niya para ibigay ang nararapat. Do not give in to the temptation of depression. Keep hoping. The Lord

I couldn't help but chuckle. I said to Joop 'Oh, magkaka boyfriend pa ako!' to which he replied 'Pag 40 ka na rin?' NAKAKAASAR! HAHAHA

But, yes Lord! I will wait. And while I'm at it, I'll work on being the person I want to be. And just enjoying the company of awesome people. :)

For more good read for the singles, here's one of my favorite blogs about life. http://everyday-isa.com/ Most of what she writes feel like my thoughts put into words. (Because I'm a better speaker than a writer.)

heart photo from blackmeetswhite.blog.com

Life's a movie

Well, almost. I find that there's always a little truth in movies.

Right now one of my favorite Sharon movies is on Cinema One- Kung Ako Nalang Sana. I hate to admit it but I kinda feel like I'm a little of Emmy (Sharon). Aside from our size (haha), I really see myself as Emmy some ten years from now. The girl who looks after everyone- family and friends. I hope to be as rich as her character too!

Kulang lang sa akin- guy best friend who, when I reach 40 and single, will be willing to marry me. hahahahahaha Shempre naman I wanna be married before I reach 30 noh. Okay fine 32. May allowance para sure.

Speaking of guy best friend...I guess I really don't have one. I have guy friends but my closest friends are girls. I mean, no one can understand girls like their girlfriends do. The closest I had to a guy best friend was back in high school. Until he fell in love with my friend. hahahaha Until now, sila pa rin so I guess it's meant to be. But it doesn't matter. I love my girl and gay friends! I'm sure one day we'll meet our prince charming through them or maybe we'll meet THE ONE when we're out with our friends. They'll be there when some casanova breaks your heart. Their tears will flow when you make your vows and some of them will be among the hopefuls to catch the bouquet.

Whatever it is, girlfriends will stick with you through thick and thin.

Oh well, I'm just 21. I shouldn't panic yet.

Or okay, I should not panic too much yet.

Lights, Camera, Action!

When I want to know something, I make sure I don't stop until I am satisfied with the answers. Like when I ask who you're rooting for between Maribel and Rubi, I don't shut up when you tell me who. I ask why, and then assuming I'm still not satisfied, I throw in a question or two about why I disagree. This is not to start an argument of course. It's because I want to understand.

Days ago I saw a quote that reads "If you do not go after what you want, you'll never have it."

I've always wondered why we keep looking at things that can hurt us? Is it just because we'd rather take the pain than drown in the pool of curiosity? Or we think it's painful now so a little more won't make a change? Or do we think getting all the pain now spares us from future ones a.k.a. isang bagsakan nalang?

Days ago I had dreams. Really nice dreams that I actually tried to sleep more hoping to see the sequel. So I actually entertained of going after the dream. I thought of flying to Sydney, stroll in the park, hoping to bump into that dream.

But when I began doing my 'research' I found out that my dream does not exist anymore. That someone else is living it. And I just have to settle with the fact that it's something I cannot control. You're probably planning to tell me to still go for it and prove that I can do a better job. Hold it. This is not some big shot job I can just steal from anyone. You see, it's not easy to control someone's heart. You can't control people and manipulate things like the director does in movies.

I have a feeling I've had too much movies while growing up. Feeling ko kaya kong i-control yung mga bagay-bagay. Feeling ko pag ginawa ko yung ginawa nung bida, yung katambal ko ay magrereact rin parehas nung nasa pelikula. So even as an adult, there's that little child in me thinking I can achieve things by plotting scenes.

I've done them before- not just with my crushes ok? (DON'T JUDGE!) Even when I pair up my friends, or when I plan surprises for other people. It's all about timing. Everything I plotted for my friends- birthdays, victories, events- they all worked perfectly. But when it comes to my life- it just doesn't seem to go my way. We become happy and then we drift apart. I've never had a 'connection' that lasted more than a sem. Some reasons include not being classmates anymore, I graduated already, etc. Maybe someone should do the plotting for me too noh?

If there's one thing I appreciate about watching so much movies when I was a kid is that like in movies, I am an actress and God is my director.

And yes, just like in the movies, when you trust the director and the time is right, surely you'll get your happy ending.

STAY IN LOVE WITH LOVE!♥

p.s.

I think I now know why I like Hector. Aside from the fact that I like Diether ever since I can remember, the character of Hector reminds me of my dream. Their way of dressing up, the way they treat ladies- super Hector.

We find love in different places

Like Quiapo.

While mom and I were in Quiapo last Monday, we passed by some flower vendors. They had fresh supplies of roses, mums, anthuriums and all sorts of flowers. And I fell in love.

No matter how others say that roses are overrated, they're just so beautiful. Of course there's tulips which I also like but roses are the sweetest thing. Anyway so yeah I fell in love- but I didn't buy them. I revel in the thought that one day I'll receive flowers without the need of an occasion. Because the truth is, the first time I received a rose was during an anniversary of the fraternity (I forget the name) at Benton Hall. I was waiting for my class at Benton when some stranger approached and gave me a red rose. That was freshman year. And the other few times were two Valentine's from PX friends (2008, 2009) and then some bribe I got from "D" and "M" during their comm wars (hehe obviously this one is easy to figure out).

Photos from Pinay New Yorker's flickr.

favorite colors of roses: white, peach and yellow

I have yet to experience that kilig moment when a bouquet of flowers greet you surprisingly. But I know in my heart, someone will come and bring me the roses that never fail to make me fall in love. And until then, I'm not gonna buy those beautiful roses.

Find love

Title inspired by DR's top 7 blog post. And just like her, it's also in my (sort-of-urgent) to-do list. HAHAHA Okay forget what I said.

Just recently a college orgmate labeled me as a love doctor. Then a few minutes ago I just read a post of a friend relaying her experience of a fail getaway with her boyfriend that resulted in her walk out. I found myself advising her to just drop it coz it's not worth it.

This isn't the first time. Many times I talk to friends about their love life (or the lack of it haha) and we end up deciphering every detail of their dilemma. I'm not calling myself an expert. I'M FAR FROM BEING ONE. Everything I tell my friends, I learned from the movies. HAHAHAHA Not purely form the movies. Of course the stuff I read, teleseryes I watch, the experiences my friends had, my own set of principles, and of course, logic.

I am close to doing a word-vomit here. I guess what I'm saying is...'Ako na ang love doctor, ako pa ang single.' Couldn't state it in English because it wouldn't encompass what I really want to say. It's funny. I laugh at the thought of not having 'someone' right now. My friends and I laugh and joke about it a lot. But I firmly believe all of us are destined to be with someone who's worth the wait. And that keeps me going and hoping every waking day.

Look at Judy Ann Santos. If you are within my age bracket, you'd agree when I say I never thought she'd end up with someone like Ryan Agoncillo. DIBA DIBA DIBA? See how life has it's way of leading you to the one? I watched their wedding special and I cannot help but be kilig that someone as sosh and refined as Ryan will fall in love with the masang-masa Juday. Simply put- Juday is an inspiration! That one day we will all find our own Ryan's. That someone will be able to accept us and our crazy antics. Lalu na ako. I'm a very masa person. I watch Tagalog films, Cinema One is my default cable channel, and I love Sharon Cuneta. That's pretty much balanced naman. I watch Hollywood films too! (haha biglang bumawi eh.) I know brands people haven't heard of, I'm updated with couture, I travel. (Okay pabida na, stopeeeet.) And I know there's a guy (or guys? HAHAHA) who appreciate these things. And who is this guy? Someone who's a great friend like Ned (to Budjuy), a dream guy like Anton, and as breathtaking as Miggy Montenegro.

Told you I learned from the movies!

P.S.

(uuuy iniisip kung anong movies...)