I just finished watching a video of my nephew Julian. He was laughing and giggling and clapping. I find myself crying after.

I miss Julian so much. He rarely spends time with me- not that he has to. He's visited only once in each of dad's last two visits here in Manila.

I feel so much injustice not being able to spend time with him. And I say this without (hopefully) sounding like his mother. I dunno. I guess kids just have this effect on you. You become kinder, and more hopeful of the future. And you become 'meaner' to bad people because it is sort of your contribution in making the world a better place for the kids.

Okay, I'm stopping now. I just had to write this down.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PAMANGKIN, the cutest baby ever,

JULIAN!

(Tune in my head: 'bulilit, bulilit, sanay sa masikip' hahaha)

I LOVE YOU TO BITS CUTIE PIE!

I can't believe it's been a year but I'm very happy! I'm excited to see him grow up but he's sooo cute I hope he doesn't grow up too soon. He's like my kid except I don't discipline him. I spoil him. hahaha But yes, like a mom, I've changed his diapers when he pees and poops (hahaha), put him to sleep, play with him, fed him, etc. And like a good ninang, I buy him, what else? SHOES! Awwwww I super love Julian!

Whattup?

I earned some dough from Dad today. He made me do his expense reports and promised I'd get 5% of face value of the total amount. Yahooooo! Ang saya rumaket! So far I've earned something like three days worth of allowance already. It's funny to note that I've been waaay more thrifty now than when I was in school. Probably because I don't need to regularly replenish my wardrobe, or that there are less 'dine outs' with friends now. But still, I'm lovin' the thrift mode. I wanna surprise myself one day when I check my savings, I have enough funds to take me to Batanes. hehe

I miss Dianne. She's probably sick of tempura and sushi now, and is preoccupied with Arigato-ing and praying not to get AH1N1 a.k.a. swine flu in Japan. HAHA We'll have lunch when she gets back. Lot's of catching up to doooo. I miss everyone actually. Even my high school friends! I hope our Boracay plans are still up. It's way cheaper there in June. yey! 

Lately I've been searching recipes I wanna try out once mom, dad, and Joop leaves for Iloilo. I will own the kitchen again. YEY! I'm craving for Thai Chicken Salad from CPK. It's my favorite salad in CPK (coz really, I haven't tried anything else, hahaha!) It's super yummy, I actually googled a generic thai chicken salad recipe. I shall try this soon. ANG SARAP KUMAIN. SORRY NAMAN.

Anyway, change topic! (Kiwi! - inside joke. My apologies.)

Julian's growing fast! On Monday he turns 6 months and can start eating solid food already. It has to be unflavored and soft though, in other words lugaw. He is very playful!

I'm excited to bring him to places, teach him badminton, and enroll him in piano lessons. HAHA Yes, I think I will sponsor his piano lessons. Only my mom knows how to play the piano that's why I want someone in his generation to learn it too. But since I won't have a child anytime soon, siya nalang.  I really want a pearl white grand piano in my dream house. That will be my gift to mom and Julian and myself. Ayyy Lord, gusto ko marunong mag piano yung magiging asawa ko. ahahaha

Speaking of my dream house... I have been collecting visual pegs for my ultimate dream house. I have also lightly joked to Fa that Ernan will do it (he's an architecture student now). By the time he finishes, hopefully I've started saving up for the house. I want a lot of different pegs and they're not even cohesive! Good luck naman Ernan! haha! How about you? Have you thought of your dream house? hehe

Anyhooo, I still have a lot to accomplish pala! I wanna do them while mom is here to accompany me. That means I have one week.

1. My postal ID is in the works. Not important but serves as a valid ID.

2. Need to get my TIN # asap.

3. License!!!

4. Register for the elections.

5. NBI clearance.