Maybe I'll leave for a few weeks. Just to find myself. Just to see what I really want to do. I have too many dreams that I hope to fulfill. I know some would say I am still young and still have a lot of time to achieve my dreams. Yeah, I think so too. My problem is where do I start?
I want to help now. I want to touch lives now. But I want to work on my own life too. i want to be stable so that I can focus all my efforts in helping others. I want to teach in super poor areas. Be an inspiration to poor kids. I'll share a secret with you. I am secretly hoping that one day there will be a teaching program for non-education graduates. I believe non-Educ graduates like me can very well teach kids in pre-school and elementary. Not just some org outreach event or a college immersion thingy. I want something that involves people who share the same passion for teaching and giving back. Accoridng to the law, you can't teach (except in the college level) unless you are a graduate (and board passer) in Education. (Not the exact words of the law but gets?) There is so much scarcity of teachers- why not give others a chance to teach? I feel this way every time I watch documentaries about poor communities in the barrios. Sometimes they don't even have books. And there was one barrio which had only one teacher. I envision the program as something like a one year volunteer work where young people like me would be sent to chosen provinces to teach for a year. Every year, delegates are sent to these barrios. Each volunteer has the option to stay in the place to continue teaching (and be a mentor to everyone), move to a different assignment, or come back to the city and pursue his profession.
My heart breaks to see people who want to study but are unable to do so. Haaay.
When I was a kid, I was so sure I wanted to become a teacher. Then I changed my mind coz I knew I won't be rich by becoming a teacher. I have to admit I still cannot imagine living a non-lavish life. Maarte pa rin ako. I want my own car (with a driver pa nga sana), my dream house in a prime lot in Manila, a farm or beach house, pretty shoes and bags. I still dream of traveling around the world whenever I please. I still imagine being very rich. But I believe the very reason for wanting to be rich is not the dream house, nor the car, nor the pretty shoes. I believe it's about being able to help more people. Oh well, maybe childhood dreams are the most genuine dreams after all.
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If God has WiFi and can read this right now, I hope he sends me answers. I hope he sends me opportunities that will lead me in achieving all these. And if you're close to God, please tell him about me.
