First day thoughts

Happy new year!

I have written here less and less over the years and I feel slightly bad about it. Mga three percent. haha I used to just write whenever I feel like it, about whatever I want. I don't care if no one reads it. Now I just rant to my friends, or worse, have crazy bad mood episodes at home. That's fine when my folks aren't here. But when they're in town and I have a bitch fit, it gets bad. I hope I can work on a less destructive outlet soon.

Anyhooo, I don't know how it happened but I ended up watching two Filipino movies tonight. First was That Thing Called Tadhana (saw this in the cinema first; Angelica Panganiban and JM de Guzman) , followed by Just The Way You Are (Enrique Gil and Liza Soberano).

My heart is a mess right now.

The funny thing is, I've seen a lot of Pinoy movies, and not just romance movies ha. I watch action movies, heavy drama, slapstick comedy. I believe the only exception would be horror movies. I cannot handle horror movies- local or foreign.

Back to my heart being a mess, I'm quite surprised that I feel some emotion after watching the two movies because I've always believed they can't make me kilig anymore. I've seen every possible smooth move, and heard every mushy line there is. WRONG. Or maybe I just let my guard down for a moment, after all, it is new year's day.

Indulge me as I let all these feelings out tonight and hopefully, avoid a bad-mood episode when I wake up in the morning.

Naniniwala pa rin ako na meron at merong pag-ibig na para sa atin. Yung taong naiintindihan ka at iintindihin ka. Yung naniniwala sa mga pangarap mo at gusto niya, makamit mo ang mga ito. Yung masaya kapag nagtatagumpay ka kasi alam niyang ang tagumpay mo ay tagumpay rin niya. Yung hindi ka pakakawalan kahit nag iinarte ka. Sa halip, patatawanin ka niya hanggang malimutan mong galit ka. Yung araw-araw pipiliin ka, kahit mahirap, kahit nakakapagod, kahit minsan parang suko ka na. At ikaw rin, araw-araw pipiliin siya. Yun ang para sa atin.  

Whenever I remember how much love I can give, I am reminded how much love I deserve. And it makes me hold on, it makes me hang in there another second, another minute more. Tiwala lang. Sabi nga ni Lola Nidora ' sa tamang panahon.'