Soul Searching

Maybe I'll leave for a few weeks. Just to find myself. Just to see what I really want to do. I have too many dreams that I hope to fulfill. I know some would say I am still young and still have a lot of time to achieve my dreams. Yeah, I think so too. My problem is where do I start?

I want to help now. I want to touch lives now. But I want to work on my own life too. i want to be stable so that I can focus all my efforts in helping others. I want to teach in super poor areas. Be an inspiration to poor kids. I'll share a secret with you. I am secretly hoping that one day there will be a teaching program for non-education graduates. I believe non-Educ graduates like me can very well teach kids in pre-school and elementary. Not just some org outreach event or a college immersion thingy. I want something that involves people who share the same passion for teaching and giving back. Accoridng to the law, you can't teach (except in the college level) unless you are a graduate (and board passer) in Education. (Not the exact words of the law but gets?) There is so much scarcity of teachers- why not give others a chance to teach? I feel this way every time I watch documentaries about poor communities in the barrios. Sometimes they don't even have books. And there was one barrio which had only one teacher. I envision the program as something like a one year volunteer work where young people like me would be sent to chosen provinces to teach for a year. Every year, delegates are sent to these barrios. Each volunteer has the option to stay in the place to continue teaching (and be a mentor to everyone), move to a different assignment, or come back to the city and pursue his profession. 

My heart breaks to see people who want to study but are unable to do so. Haaay. 

When I was a kid, I was so sure I wanted to become a teacher. Then I changed my mind coz I knew I won't be rich by becoming a teacher. I have to admit I still cannot imagine living a non-lavish life. Maarte pa rin ako. I want my own car (with a driver pa nga sana), my dream house in a prime lot in Manila, a farm or beach house, pretty shoes and bags. I still dream of traveling around the world whenever I please. I still imagine being very rich. But I believe the very reason for wanting to be rich is not the dream house, nor the car, nor the pretty shoes. I believe it's about being able to help more people. Oh well, maybe childhood dreams are the most genuine dreams after all. 

P.S.

If God has WiFi and can read this right now, I hope he sends me answers. I hope he sends me opportunities that will lead me in achieving all these. And if you're close to God, please tell him about me.

Another episode of...ANG TANONG!

Ahahaha natatawa naman ako sa title ko. Anyhooo, this time it's on a more serious note.

After reading a post from a college friend and fellow blogger Javidoods, I thought to myself talaga...WHY? So ang tanong ay...

Why do I want to get a great, high-paying and enjoyable job? Take note ha, not just high-paying...ENJOYABLE DAPAT. 

My reasons (superficial or otherwise) are as follows:

1. To finance my lifestyle. haha 

I like to describe my spending habit this way- I don't spend a lot all the time. I choose what to spend for. I'm more of a quality over quantity person when it comes to my things. But I have learned in my long shopping days to find cheap thrills and good buys as well. Most of my money goes to my family, friends and myself. I use my funds to 'build and strengthen relationships'.

I've been saving up for a DLSR since my Cybershot died months ago. Thank God I found sponsors for it. My mom's siblings in the States will be getting it for me since I won't be availing of their grad treat (trip to the USA haha parang raffle). It's coming in July. Mejo matagal pa pero kebs. Now my savings will be in tact. Hopefully it'll be enough to keep me afloat while I wait for THE job.

2. To be able to travel to the many places I want to visit. My top destination goals are Batanes (ang mahaaaal ng airfare via SEAIR haha), Villa Milagros in Cebu, and Hundred Islands in Pangasinan. Actually I want to visit a lot of places in the Philippines but these three are my top of mind destinations. Out of the country destinations include Paris, New York and Burobudur in Indonesia. hehe

3. To be able to give back more. 'Nuff said.

4. To retire early. hahaha How I wish I could 'live on interest' by age **. hahaha secreeeet! Baka ma jinx! 

5. To not feel like working at all. I want every working day something to look forward to. As many successful people say, do what you love and you won't be working at all.

Haaay, what's a girl to do? I just want to enjoy life. Can I get paid to do that? Please let me know. haha

Oh, which reminds me...someone already won the BEST JOB IN THE WORLD. Good for you Mister Ben Southall sir. YAY! Ako rin sana ganyan, kahit somewhere in the Philippines lang. hehe

Happy rainy vacation, y'all!

IT'S COMING TO AN END

Tell me how I'll say goodbye.

It's been four years- four long, fun and exciting years that will stay with me for the rest of my life.

Just the thought of leaving makes me cry.

Because it's really hard to leave when all the good things are here.

When all the happy days lead you back to your second home.

Masyado pa akong masaya, nakakatakot umalis kasi baka malungkot na.

In the four years I had...

Let me remember the smiles that made my day.

The hugs that lightened my mood and the crazy jokes that sent me laughing out loud.

Let me recall the funniest moments that had me rolling on the floor.

Now I can say I am happy.

Let me remember the subjects I enjoyed.

The teachers I loved, and those I those I love to hate

The classes I struggled with, and the classes I never miss.

Now I can say I have learned.

Let me remember our sweet victories as a block, as an org, as a group.

Let me recall the defeats that made us stronger.

Let me reminisce on the cases we lived through and survived as A block and as a batch.

Now I can say we are one.

Let me recall the late nights we shared.

The parties we rocked, the music we grooved to,

the movie dates and the spur of the moment stuff we did.

Now I can say I lived.

Let me retrace the roads we travelled,

the tracks we ran,

and the race we made.

Now I can say I gave my best.

Let me say thank you to the unexpected friends I made.

To the first friends I've kept, and to the new ones I treasure dearly.

Now I can say I am better.

Let the mushiness linger a little longer.

Let the music repeat itself.

For if I could, I'd extend the week a little more

and re-do all the things we enjoy together.

Let me hug you one more time.

Let me cry with you just this once.

For after this part, we go on with our lives.

We'll see each other soon, I bet.

But for now, I think I can,

I can say goodbye.

MY FRIENDS, BOTH OLD AND NEW MAKE IT HARD FOR ME TO LEAVE.

That sometimes I wish it would last a little longer. But it's all ending really soon. I can really say I have enjoyed my college life to the fullest. I may not leave with the highest awards, but I can say I had the best damn time of my life with my dearest friends and the best people in the world.

The biggest thank you to the people who became part of my college life. To my friends, my blockmates (Yooohooo group block A!), to my ABAM family, my JFA family, my AdCore circle,COMELEC families (under Kitch and Tim), my ABAM-HR loves, my Burger Macho and Oracle group, Ilocos Summer friends, my H&S, Wonder and Kruchy teams, my cassava queens and Stitch donyanesses, to my crushes, my teachers, to my road trip buddies, my late night McDo friends, my ka-inumans and ka-gimmicks back in junior year, my non-BA friends and rappel-mates.

IT'S BEEN AN AMAZING FOUR YEARS.

Thank you.

Cheers to togetherness, 'til God knows when.

Do leave your comment below or sa multiply link. hehe

Topic-dump

NEWBIE

By now everyone has seen the famous McDo commercial. Everyone I know has blogged or replied to a blog about it. While I have enjoyed the luck of seeing it on the very first time it was aired, I was too lazy to sit down and blog about it at that instant. haha 

For the record, I liked it! As in like- at face value ha. More than that, ang galing ng timing ng commercial. By now you should know that the second part of the Eraserheads concert (aka The Final Set) is set on March 7. I am super kaduuuuper excited for this. I do hope Fa manages to get us stickers! Stickers for VIP and SVIP, tickets for patron and general admission. If you have a contact and is willing to get us stickers for a fee, lemme know!!! Anyhooo, back to the commercial. McDonald's and Eraserheads. Two big brands in their respective industries. And two big brands building one another. In fairness talaga, walang nalugi sa commercial. haha Haaay, I miss Sir Ray Acedera tuloy. I am sooo gonna attend the finals day of his 177 class this sem. 

SLEEPY HEAD

On a different note, today I was suuuper sleepy the whole day. On my way home, I realized why. I drank bioflu today- one after breakfast, another around 2 pm. So in all my classes I was so sleepy I had to leave to avoid embarrassing myself in case the teacher sees me. The weather is making me sick, ugh. I wonder how I'll survive in a different, and much colder country. Wag nalang. hahaha

DONYA-ness

Today we had 192 (Entrep class). Mr. Gary Quimado returned our business proposals and gave his feedback. I'm happy that he liked all three proposals we (with Fa, Weng, Jeni and Emm) submitted. Right now I just wish I find it in myself to REALLY BELIEVE in what I can do so that I'll have enough courage to put up my own business. I don't really have a plan for my life after graduation. All I I have are random little thoughts- like travel with mommy after grad before I start working (if I get a job at all). Right now I think I have to structure my life. I know what I want to be in the future- the life I'm living and all the shizz that comes with it. But I have no idea how to get there. I just wanna be a donya- is that too much to ask? HAHAHA My 192 groupmates and I just wanna be donyas. That's all.

Here's to donyaness and the things we have to go through to get there! :D