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You know those days when you feel blah and you know exactly why but just couldn't say it out loud?

Because saying it out loud contradicts your alter-ego's beliefs and kills the positivity in you. Because the more you say it, the more it'll probably not come around and the longer you'll stay in such blah state.

And there's no one to turn to. Not because you've got no friends but because you know they can't really do anything about it. Some of them have greater problems than what you have. Heck this one is not even a problem.

It's killing you, to sit and wait for something, anything to happen and you see all the good things in others and then you ask yourself... so? And me? Uhhh, hello?

Loser much?

Am I such a loser for saying that the best part of my week is Saturday?

Yesterday I tweeted "I don't have any debt but I feel so poor!"

Now I think I figured out why.

You see, I don't exactly live an office girl lifestyle. My weekdays are usually free of paperwork - unless my boss is here and has stuff that he needs me to do. On a normal, work-free day, I just lounge on the sofa and fiddle with my computer until it's nighttime. In some days I do my laundry. Twice or thrice a week I find myself at the mall. Sometimes to pay the bills and buy groceries, sometimes just to dine out, usually to find something to spend on- which is bad, I know. I find that shopping is a way of killing time for me. It's unproductive, wasteful and clearly, not doing good for my 'career'.

On Saturdays though, I'm sooo alive! Taking that dance class is the best decision I've made as far as my '(non)-active' lifestyle is concerned. I love that I dance with my friends. I love that we can catch up. It feels like college PE class- except we were never classmates in PE back in college. It's even more fun that our instructor is so hot on the dance floor but let's not get into that. But I have to admit, it's part of the motivation.

Saturdays will be even crazier because I've reserved my afternoons to meet up with other friends to discuss stuff I cannot reveal just yet. I'm also looking forward to our next GNOs with themes! First on the list is an all-things-girly sleepover at Edsa Shang! Well, it was supposedly in one of our houses but we all have reasons why we can't host the sleepover so Ja suggested that we book a room at Edsa Shang. YAY! Can't wait!

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

Hiphop Saturday Session 3! Oh my gosh you guys, today was a blast! But not without misadventures!

I was excited coz Farrah and Jen are back to attend class with me and Cams. I decided to wear my old sneakers because it glides better on the floor. I left home a little past 10 am and rode the bus to Tandang Sora. If you're familiar with the bus, there's two or three steps to take to reach the row of seats. My right foot hit the last step and I felt it...I felt the sole of my shoe come off. Apparently it wasn't just an old pair. It was a very old pair. HAHAHA

So I sat on the nearest empty seat and mentally weighed my options. To hop off, go home and change shoes or pray that Jen is a size 9 and borrow from her. (Her house is located on the street beside the dance studio.) I had to risk it. I texted Jen about my dilemma. Mygosh she's a size 8 but I was desperate so I said pwede na yan! Thank God I packed a pair of slippers with me so I changed into them while on the bus. Imagine if I didn't bring slippers?! Oh Lord, you are amazing.

Just to make sure, I passed by 7-Eleven, bought a ridiculously overpriced super glue (80 pesos!!!) AND WTH IT DIDN'T REPAIR MY SHOE. Sayang yung 80 pesos. After a few minutes Fa picked me up from Jollibee beside 7-Eleven. A little after we got to the studio, Cams was already there. Jen arrived with my emergency shoes. THANK GOD THEY FIT. Literal na fit ha. As in fit na fit a.k.a. MASIKIP. :))

Now the class. There were only six girls. Four of us and then Riza (special mention #1 in session 2) and then a new girl Reg. It was a great class. Less people, more space for each of us and we belong to the same age group so it's pretty easy to get along. Coach started teaching us. At first I still felt the usual pressure I feel but I forced myself to release the tension and just dance the way I dance at home. WALA NANG HIYA HIYA! hahaha

During our waterbreak, Coach left the room so we had a chance to throw in some comments like 'I can't do this step or that. This one is too fast, I skip a step to catch up, etc.' When Coach came back, we started with our second set of steps.

After completing the sets, Coach said 'I'd like to see, hmmm...these two dance.' OMG I ALMOST DIED. These two = Me and Riza. Sabi ko 'Sabayan mo kami Sir.' "Yah, sure!" AYIIIIEEEE LANDI. I KNOW. (Funny how Riza and I are both 'healthy' so at first akala ko size showdown. :)) But Riza's a little bigger. Mga parang si Mercedes sa Glee.)

So there, sample chuva lalala. Then Coach said "The reason I picked these two is that they got groove." He points to me saying "I like your groove." OMG CAN YOU FEEL MY HEART FLUTTER? Then he tells everyone 'you know this *does the step* gotta have the groove from the start. Practice grooving everywhere. Like when you hear music, groove to it. I JUST HAD TO SAY THIS ALOUD: 'Sir, kung alam mo lang.' EVERYONE LAUGHED! So tinuloy ko na yung joke... Luto ka na, *grooove*! Laba ka na, *grooove*! Remind me to demonstrate this. haha Glad everyone was laughing. It's nice to attend a class where you're friends with everyone. A lot of jokes were thrown in the session.

We had this side kick step and Coach said 'your kick has to be strong. Think that there's this annoying person beside you that you want to kick hard. I joked 'Sir, sir, dito ka nga (sa tabi ko). OMG everyone laughed but Coach didn't get the joke. He laughed but he probably thought we were laughing coz of his tip.

Anyway we did the set again two more times and then he dismissed the class with the final woohoos and claps for everyone. Coach approached and gave us high fives. I'd like to think Riza and I got special high fives. With Riza's he had this roaring sound effect na super angas. I was the last one who got a high five so we kinda got into a small talk. All I remember is 'I like your groove. The first day you were shy but now you've got it.' Something like that. I'm giddy he remembers me from the first day. *yes, insert giggle here* All I said in reply was 'Thank you!"

He was in a waaaay better mood today and I love it so much. Riza agrees he was 'out of it' last week.

Okay I am talking like a crazy teenager (hahaha feelingera?). This should be entitled 'Chronicles of today's hiphop class.' Because I seriously don't want to forget anything about my eventful morning.

Just so we're clear, yes some* friends and I find our dance teacher hottt. He's married with two kids. 'Nuff said.

*(some = excluding Fa)

I love my boss!

Today my dad and I went to the printing office to work on some product labels. Amazing how these graphic artists do magic on the computer. I originally planned to be dropped off at the mall before dad drives to the printing office but he said I should tag along since we're having dinner at the mall anyway. Of course, I tagged along, unwillingly. haha It was all good though. My inputs were executed on the labels so my ears are flapping in delight. Not much of an achievement compared to others but at least my mall time turned label making was productive.

A little past three, I was sleepy and hungry. Glad we were wrapping up. Dad and I drove to Trinoma, paid some bills, checked some stores and eventually he gave up walking around and we had coffee. I asked permission to leave for a quick window shopping. Twenty minutes later he was not in the coffee shop and I called him and found him sitting at the food court. You know dads. They may seem stern but they know their kids. My dad knows his daughter.

I was fidgety sitting in front of him and then he said 'Puntahan mo na yung gusto mong puntahan. Text mo nalang ako kung nasaan ka mamaya.' UGH. I LOVE MY DAD. So I left and found myself in my favorite stores but ended up buying a shirt from Gap. After that purchase, I stashed the paper bag in my tote to meet up with dad for dinner.

When I sat at the table, the first thing he asked was 'Oh, wala kang nabili?' hahahaha I hesitantly answered 'Meroooon.' I was kinda shy to let my dad know I spent money again today. Not because he's against it. He never was. It's just funny that he's concerned if I spent my shopping time wisely.

On our way home, we talked about cars and motors and traffic. He gives me tips about driving (as if I drive!) haha Like I should be careful of cars without break lights But I've been thinking a lot lately. Maybe I should start practicing driving so I can drive my folks around. And my brother too (up until he learns how to drive) coz he's going to college next year. Much like Fa who sometimes takes Ernan to school or pick him up in whichever mall. And Raish who drives herself and Mico to school until Mico learned to drive. Sooo cute. I hope my brother is enthusiastic too.

Anyway, I'm deviating from my topic. I just wanna say I loved today! Plus it was Glee's premiere! Charice was soooo good but it seems like the botox didn't work. haha Hope the eps get better and the botox eventually shows its effects!

Can't tweet this

HOW IS IT THAT I'M FRUSTRATED FOR SUCKING AT DANCE CLASS? IT'S JUST A FRIGGIN DANCE CLASS! PUCHA.