Losing everything

Losing everything when there was nothing at all in the first place.

Did you ever miss your friend so much even if he/she is just there? That's exactly how I feel. And last night, I tried to address this dilemma. It's been weeks since our last real conversation. Over the silence weeks, my friend made decisions I did not see coming but I still let it go. I have no idea what is happening in my friend's life. So wanting (maybe desperately) to catch up, I called my friend.

Would you happen to be wide awake and would want to talk tonight?
I'm wrapping up a movie.
*some other forgotten and unheard conversation*
So, wanna meet up?
Thanks but I'm having fun.

I didn't know how to react. I felt I lost all my pride when I got turned down. My friend hasn't been catching up for weeks and I make the call.

I RAN AFTER YOU TO SAVE US.

YOU TELL ME YOUR OTHER FRIENDS DID NOT TRY TOO MUCH TO KEEP THE FRIENDSHIP.

Look who's talking.