What do you do when someone resurfaces in your life when you've totally forgotten and recovered already? This is like Georgina Sparks repeatedly coming back in the lives of Dan, Serena, Nate, Blair and Chuck. Like once everyone ok, she comes back to Manhattan to raise hell and mess up everyone's lives and then she gets away unscathed (well, at least most of the time).
Anyway back to reality...Since I've moved on, of course I casually respond to messages. Day 1 was the elections. It was something I didn't mind because my boss wasn't around and I wasn't busy. Day 2: He messaged me again on my birthday to greet me. Day 3: He messaged again the day after to apologize not being able to respond (which I really didn't mind coz all I texted was Thank you when he greeted me). It was a good and long exchange of messages but later on I started analyzing and thinking WHY ALL THESE (again!!!) NOW?
The details: Days: Monday (may 10; lots of SMS),Sunday (my birthday; just 1 SMS), Monday (May 17; lots of sms). My analysis: THIS IS A CASE OF CONVENIENCE- a long time theory of my dear friend Farrah. Simply put: because it's a fact that you're just there all the time, when what he wants isn't within reach, he goes for what (or who) is available.
How so? Most exchanges of messages were on weekdays and a weird time- which means it's just another day at the office for his girlfriend. Which makes her unavailable for him to talk to. Knowing my working environment, he knew he had someone to rant about his excruciating headache at that time of the day.
AND STUPID ME, IT TOOK ME SO MANY MESSAGES BEFORE COMING UP WITH SUCH CONCLUSION. You know what sealed the deal?
Yesterday he messaged me to say he wasn't able to reply after greeting me happy birthday because he just got back from *insert name of province* for the weekend. Cool. No problem. His family always goes out of town so that wasn't a surprise. All I said was 'thank you' anyway so I really didn't expect a reply. But today I checked Facebook, he was tagged in a few photos and guess who he was with that time... the girlfriend- who else?!
He always has this ridiculous alibis whenever he cancels. Like he said he'd drop by later at a friend's place to help us with something. I woke up to a text saying he can't make it coz he has an exam with a certain company. So my friend said 'HELLO KUNG EXAM MO NGAYON, DAPAT DAYS BEFORE ALAM MO NA YUN. HINDI NAMAN YUN DAY ITSELF NALALAMAN.' Okay sorry na, ako na ang na-uto.
ETO LANG YUN... Believe me when I say I'm okay. I've been okay ever since forever. What I'm irritated about IS HOW HE TREATS OTHER PEOPLE IN RELATION TO HIS LIFE. Why can't he just stop disturbing my life because really I have long concluded that we are not gonna get along well enough to foster at least friendly relationship.
IF YOU'RE HAPPY, LET ME NAMAN CONTINUE LIVING A PEACEFUL LIFE. STOP RESURFACING OVER AND OVER AGAIN LIKE YOU CAN JUST WALK INTO PEOPLE'S LIVES, DISTURB THEM AND THEN WALK AWAY BECAUSE YOU'VE GOTTEN YOUR FIX. I'M GIVING YOU A CHANCE TO BE MY FRIEND BUT STOP SCREWING THINGS UP. STOP WALKING AWAY JUST LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO. OR BETTER YET, DON'T WALK INTO MY LIFE ON CRAZY DAYS? My birthday- sure. Christmas and new year- no problem. But when you're just bored on a random day, JUST PLEASE SIT ON YOUR HANDS AND STAY AWAY FROM YOUR PHONE.
The only reason why I reply to him is because I don't want to be rude. But screw it! I'm rude now. Only to him. Today he messaged to cancel about dropping by in the afternoon. You know what I did?
I typed in "IT DOESN'T MATTER." and hit SEND.
2 comments:
good for yah! go girl! :)
haha thanks!
And thanks for reading my posts. :)
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